Dear Future Husband,


Yours truly,
Perfectly imperfect me

P/S: Dear myself, find Allah, then find yours

phew phew...guys i've made a real comeback after a month of my disappearance. i was busy caught up with the last minutes online application to boarding schools since Cikgu Maimun urged us to do so. What came across in my mind was that "apply jelah dapat ke tak, at least kita dah cuba, selebihnya kita tawakal". I personally want to get in there since my application to boarding schools was unsuccessful when i was 12. but then, i realised i've put too much expectations sometimes i forgot that "langit tak selalunya cerah"

btw, i've freshened up the blog with the new background, new pic of my version at the sidebar bla bla bla tu pun nak bagitau :p

so here's a quick update regarding a month of my disappearance -on having high tea and eating steamboat at Cikgu Maimun’s in Aman Putra (nyum3)

i wish to see these familiar faces again in the following year.

Ok i'll be honest. i'm not so into runningman but yet half of my classmates do. So i've no choice rather than took part in the lilysters runningman games 2013. It was Adel, Qama and Izzy becoming the 'orang besar' behind the game. Why not if we loosen up the muscles by having games, since PMR is over. Shall we?


All in all, Lilysters Runningman Games was such a blast! I mean, really3....since i won the third place! Walawei jangan memain dengan saya ek

We went crazy and laughing all the way from the beginning till the end of the games since we really enjoyed it! Its actually my very first time played the game cuz some people only watch them on tv but me, myself took part in the games without bringing any survival kits with me lol.

Musmay and Nazihah almost got wrecked by the team since we need to take over the flag in Nazihah's hands in order to win the game.

At the end of the games, we stayed in Dewan Sri Putra, cherished the moments with silly jokes made by Musmay and Fatin. Aihh korang sume ni memang tak pernah tak kelakar even in a single day lah!
I was already half dead cuz dah lama sangat tak main kejar kejar. Anyways the good times we had might bring us closer together.

Muuahh ciked semua❤❤

You know those videos on Youtube about hijab styling tutorial?? bersepah kot.

“Everyday simple hijab tutorial, hijab styling tutorial with Pashmina, Satin, Bawal, Glitter bla bla bla”

So here comes the one i've been watched on Youtube by Kak Tyah. Speaking of Kak Tyah, she's cute, cheeky, fashionable and has inspired me a lot to have a bold attempt to develop hijab styles on one of her tutos. Saya pun cuba ikut step by step. Dipendekkan cerita, lepas dah flip shawl then lilit sana sini (nasib baik tak tercekik) akhirnya menjadi juga! Cuma bila tengok cermin serupa tak kena. Orang lain tengok nampak ok dah tapi bila diri sendiri tengok nampak pelik sangat haha.

And I thought i wanted to try these hijab styles on raya but i ended up being gadis melayu terakhir wearing tudung bawal putih sebab shawl sangat complicated ummpp.

Being 15 and you’ve no idea what goes well with what and that cuz fashion just isnt your thing. The struggle is real when you have absolutely zero fashion sense, and in other words i’m speaking of myself that have no sense of style at all. Kalau boleh nak pakai t-shirt long-sleeved with tracksuit instead of jeans for out but then my mum started to babble on me for being such selekeh with that kind of outfit. ok i’m not that stylish and trendy but dull, plain, tudung bawal hitam & putih dan selempang ke belakang itu memang perkara biasa. Ok itu memang selekeh tahap extreme punya haha

In my opinion, being fashionable isnt a crime but yet...

Fyi, pre-PMR trial is just around the corner and i'm working on it. But for now, let me take 15 minutes break to write on a blog post. ok this gonna be 15 minutes post as i type this. i challenge you, ain. CHALLENGE ACCEPTED!

just now, i just watched a video, rant on lagu cinta by Mat Luthfi on Youtube and it was hilarious! i said so cuz, Mat Lutfhi is a funny and humorous guy. And he also even know how to deliver his jokes in an intelligent way. i've no offense against his video afterall i'm also listening to lagu melayu cuz i'm a malaysian. so why not? ok i've no offense against anyone here, including YOU, yes my dearly silent reader.

now, i'm listening to top 4 ranking of my favourite lagu english, melayu, indonesia and k-pop in my phone playlist at this moment i'm writing this blogpost.

1. Wake Up Call by Maroon 5 - i know that this song kind of old school since it was release around 2009 at the moment i was just at 9. It used to be my warm up song when i was about to study and i just love Adam Levine!

2. Tanpa by Sixth Sense - i dont know the reason behind all this mess but i tend to imagine Zarul singing to this, maybe sebab he once confessed his true feelings to me when i was at 12. hahaha cinta monyet zaman kanak-kanak ribena :p

Am i that too cocky or just overconfident??? then, how to be genuinely confident, without seeming cocky at all??? i can't brain when it comes to these people who are most emotionally sensitive that charge someone for being such cocky or arrogant or whatsoever lah.

These people who are happened to be my acquaintance, claimed to know me inside out, but they are actually a stranger to mine. In fact, im trying to be the best version of me, cuz we are all unique in ourselves, is it?

Hi, i'm back again, SUKA TAK?? SUKA TAK??? ok tak suka :(

It all started with fine monday morning, ada sorang kakak pengawas senior nih minta Musmay bertugas jadi emcee. since Musmay tak datang sekolah haritu (aih Musmay ni pun kalu nak cuti sekolah janganlah solo je, ajak aku sekali) pastu3 kakak pengawas senior kiteorg tadi tuu minta ain atiqah yang tengah blur ni gantikan Musmay. walawei! tbh, taktau pulak yang minggu tu ada hari koperasi sekolah, naseb baik Cikgu Maimun yang bertugas minggu tu. so, rasa seronoklah sikit nak handle since Cikgu Maimun dgn saya sangat serasi ala2 sweet de amor gituu :)

Part yang tak bestnya tu bila event yang nak kena handle minggu ni tak related langsung dengan Subject, lol. Maka tinggallah seketul ain atiqah keseorangan menguruskan majlis minggu koperasi sekolah lol. Anyways, everything went smooth cuz no one yang memberontak suruh habiskan cepat majlis. Hahahaha iye, saya tahu kita semua tak suka duduk lama2 kat perhimpunan dek sinaran matahari yang panas terik di dataran SMKPP.

Ok nak cerita sket pasal perkembangan stalking Subject. As usual we used to work together since im the one yang tolong pegang kunci comp lab. Muka nih juga yang dicari suruh simpan baik2 kunci comp lab dalam drawer dia. Pernah sekali tu menggelabah tak jumpa kunci comp lab, sampai turun perhimpunan cari ain atiqah, takut siot! Naseb baik jumpa kalau tak, habis kena hentam dengan cikgu. Lol

I personally can't handle myself since i'm currently experiencing heart palpitations whenever He-Who-Must-Not-Be-Named is around. My thoughts continually turn to him; every song reminds me of his face, his broad smile, his deep voice and know i've been dreaming about him. It's an ache that literally hurts my chest! I can't get over him in the hours and days at the school and i don't know what's more tragic that i keep looking for him wherever i go. It's not just infatuation; it's real love!

Physchologists say a crush only lasts for 4 months, but when feelings last longer, you are considered to be "in love".

source: factualfacts.com

Unrequited love is hell cuz all you do is spend your days thinking of someone who will never think of you. it all merged into one feeling of sickening agitation but yet, it was a fun distraction, eh boleh pulak. it was my bff, Musmay keep saying that, "it's such inappropriate for having that kind of wild feeling lah ain atiqah". She also thought that i'm being too obsessed over He-Who-Must-Not-Be-Named since i've been through "typical crush behaviour" phases. ok let me be clear on that one by one.

I told Musmay, i wish that He-Who-Must-Not-Be-Named will be going to teach our class next year – when all you really want to do is stare at his face every day. but it will be never happened since we have Cikgu Hadrah teaches us geography. FYI, it happened ONCE when he was being a sub. And there was a whole story behind it.

One day when i was out of the class, and the sub in. My heart pounded fast when i got to see, it was He-Who-Must-Not-Be-Named took over the class and all he did was returning back our marked exam papers by calling name each one of us to collect them on his desk. when my turn came, he did called me by the wrong name, Ain ATHIRAH instead of Ain ATIQAH .-.

Secondly, i get a little light-headed when He-Who-Must-Not-Be-Named walked past me in the hallway. Dia islamik giler weh, cuz all he did was lowering his gaze when he walked by any girls in the school. Err..sorry did i just look at you? Cuz i couldn't resist your charm! #cheesypick-upline

Thirdly, this is the most stupid thing i've ever done in my life! I started to look a ring on his finger to see if he's married! I dont want to jump into any conclusions but Musmay said 'the guy' is married and dah beranak-pinak dah pun. Alahai Musmay ni main taram jerrr, kan. As for me, when a guy wear a ring on, it could be a sunnah. Nak sedapkan hati lettew :p

Next, i tend to bring him up in conversations to the lilysters. Yup i did this most of the time cuz i'm interested to talk more about him as much as possible. And, dorang yang lain dah masak dah dengan perangai ain atiqah yang sorang nih.

This one will be going annoying and irritating since i asked around if anyone knows about his personal life. I play detective to know where he lives, where he comes from, is he a Kelantanese? And so on. These claims required further investigation when i've met my acquaintance schoolmate named Alya a.k.a the witness. According to her, He-Who-Must-Not-Be-Named is a friend of Alya's parents and they once met during an open house. Ouh yes, the witness said he lives somewhere in Desa Ayer Hitam which is far far away from my place 😢 but yet it's helpful enough. Thank you for your cooperation Alya!

Apart from that, Musmay got to see me slightly different macam tak stabil, overly excited, tak betul, terlebih energetic and whatsoever lah cuz i've got to talk to He-Who-Must-Not-Be-Named, LIKE. EVERYDAY!!!!

Later, i slowly to realise that this is unrealistic and inappropriate (that's what ive been told by Musmay) cuz our age-gaps are too much different or else I'll have to be his 2nd wife which is mean becoming the third wheel in the relationship. NOOOOOOOO and finally i'll mourn my loss of He-Who-Must-Not-Be-Named.

Lastly, i think that i need to write down about this just in case i forgot what i've been doing so far. Hahahaha let us wrap this up!

Cuti Sekolah 

1. Duduk rumah, makan, tidur, makan tidur.
2. Balik kampunggg yehaaaa!!
3. Kak Nana's wedding
4. Amik Iqbal kat asrama

Di sebalik agenda bila masuk cuti sekolah.

a). Asek dok umah mereput, online fb, twitter, tumblr, etc.... straight 8-9 hrs, taknak kuar2 umah takut sinaran cahaya matahari boleh membuatkan kulit terbakar ala2 Mr. Dracula

b). Entahlah bila gov bagi public holiday, beria-ria nak datang sekolah, pastu bila asek kena datang sekolah, takde cuti langsung, rebel pulak nak cuti. Ehhh kekadang peliks tengok student sorang ni.

c). kalau cuti sekolah tak dapat nak usyar subjek, kalau dtg sekolah dapat usyar subject. Eh gelenyaa siot. Hypothesis accepted.

d). edit blog yg tak pernah2 nak habes .-.

Kepada blog terchentaa,

saya sayang awak beribu2 kali sayang tapi mata saya sakit asek tengok baju awak kaler kuning yang melambangkan kedaulatan bagi negara malaysia. baju awak kaler kuning yang saya pakaikan juga mengingatkan saya kepada spongebob yang tinggal dalam buah nanas di dasar lautan. Eh merepeknya. Dalam kesempatan ini saya berhasrat untuk tukarkan baju awak dari kaler kuning ke kaler pink.

DAH LAMA GILA TAK UPDATE BLOG.

Such a lame, ain 🙀🙀

Salam & Hi!

A little life update: i got A's for both Geography and Science tests. Ok that's going to be a self-sustaining push towards PMR.

*ends of babble*

Does, anyone here remember that one, i used to call eye-candy, errr Subject, etc...?????
We've met AGAAAAINN. LIKE. ALWAYS. in such events regarding school and stuff whatsoever, lah.

The ultimate level of cinta mati buta :p

Tapi3, we've got to handle such huge event at the school. And that by i meant was 'being emcee with Musmay on Teachers' Day' it was Tc Umi selected both of us since Musmay and i are good friends when we were at 8


May 11th,
Teachers' Day began with a school assembly, then Guru Besar delivered his rambling speech. Pastuu....boleh teka kot chronology of event macam mana, memasing pernah celebrate Teachers' Day is it?  Here are photos taken by farisya (i pendekkan jadi faris)

I've been reaaaaallly busy with school lately and i've tons of homework are killing me and such overlapping group work to catch up on, and i lead for my rumah sukan (rumah hijau) in maths science quiz feat Senior Sab plus i'm working on english short drama which is just around the corner, therefore i need to get myself fully prepared to act like real-life drama queen as an innocent Lisa in Rumplestiltskin.

Here goes a week off from school and away from that one, my eye candy.

And by that i meant 'i'm off from stalking'

The week has been going dull since he's a week off, perhaps need to attend those meeting and kursus out of Dengkil district and such. He probably might have to listen to my mini-rant cuz he forgot to hand over that bunch of keys of comp lab. As a result, the lilysters put blame on me cuz we become nomads for a week, move from one place to another since we cant get into 'your' comp lab untuk kesekian kalinya.

I know this is weird, but my hormones are going crazy.

It all started when i had some random talks with Mifit, Azizah and Fatin regarding the topic fangirling. and..yup! being 15 and all we do is fangirling over someone that doesn't even realise our existence. It was only me, myself is drowning deep into Adam's fandom whilst the trio are being K-pop fangirls ever since.


We kept rambling on fangirling til i saw my eye-candy on his way going to upstairs. Mifit asked me if something had bothered me from listening to her rambles. And i said yes, absolutely yes. The next question they asked me why i kept looking at the outside. MYGAWWD i found it so hard to resist his charm and i'd pretty much melt for his chinese-look but yet i couldn't spill it out.

"Ada crush kau ke kat luar??", kata seketul fatin. Pfffft fatin was right!

"Aku ada confession nih. Aku terrrrrsuka cikgu *** laahhh", i confessed.

All they did was, "euwwwww, geli do", "kau ni takde orang lain ke nak suka", "euww, orang tua jugak kau nak" with such disgust expression. bhahaahahaahahhahahahhahahaha! in fact that i've got to think twice before the confession session and yet i decided to be opened up with this kind of weird inner feeling with my lilysters.

Sebab dah kantoikan diri sendiri dengan dorang tapi still taknak satu kelas tahu, i referred him by the name 'Subject' in any conversation. The reason why i chose the name Subject..........


Recently, i got butterflies in my stomach since i've got to talk with Subject at the school lab FOR THE FIRST TIMEEE IN MY LIFE!

1st moment
The day went pretty much as usual. We had Pend. Islam extra class at 2pm in the comp lab. Since the school ended at 1.20pm i still had 40 minutes to spend. So, Fatin, Musmay, Farisya, Iffa, Ainul and i decided to take lunch at the school canteen and i bought myself a packet of buah jambu with asam serbuk as dessert. After 40 minutes plus, some of my classmates had prepared themselves with notes, modules, reference books and such but yet we had to wait up at the outside since we can't enter the comp lab without permission. Pastu, pastuu....boleh pulak Subject yang keluar dari comp lab masa tu.

Subject :Awak buat apa kat sini?
Adel: Kiteorg ada kelas tambahan cikgu
Subject: Kelas tambahan apa?
Adel: Kelas tambahan Pend. Islam
Subject: Kelas apa ni?
Qama: 3 Lily
Subject: Cemni, saya ada hal, saya pass kunci ni kat....

"Ain Atiqah, Ain Atiqah, cikgu", kata sekumpulan kanak-kanak ribena -Mifit, Azizah & Fatin

"awak pegang dulu kunci ni, nanti dah habis kelas, gi meja saya, simpan dalam drawer. Awak taukan cari tempat saya. Jangan hilangkan kunci ni, kalau hilang, nanti saya cari awak sampai dapat", kata seorang cikgu kepada seketul Ain Atiqah. 

Pfffft i didn't expect that i would have a conversation with Subject since he didn't teach my class. Tu first time dapat cakap dengan Subject even sekejap je cuz i thought that he was in rush since he had to attend meeting, lah kot. Kot ye kot. Thousand of thanks to these trio cuz they did promote myself to Subject bhahahaha. Malunyaaa hanya Allah jer yang tahu masa tu. Next!

2nd moment
Ini...yang paling gembira cuz i met him once again. It all started when i was about to get into the maths extra class. Adel asked me to remind our maths teacher, Tc Rogiah at her office since she was been late for 10 minutes. By the time Mifit and i went to the office, Subject was looking for me (that's what i've been told by Musmay since i wasn't in the class)

"Ain, Ain mana Ain? Pergi cari cikgu, kelas awak bising nih" -Subject 2013

And then, it was Adel telling him that, Mifit and i had went to office to settle down the class' management. When i came back, Adel asked me to go by myself informed him on what to do.

Me: Cikgu (berlagu).
Subjek: Ya saya?
Me: Cikgu sepatutnya hari nih kelas Tc Rohana tapi Tc Rohana takde. So, Ustazah Habibah kata Tc Rogiah yang cover. Saya dah cari dah Tc Rogiah tapi Tc Rogiah pun takde. So, sekarang nih kiteorg nak kena buat apa?
Subjek: Kamu pergi cari cikgu tu.
Me: (buat muka tak paham) Tapi masalahnya Tc Rogiah takde.
Subjek: Tc Rogiah? Maksud kamu Tc Rogiah Moin tu? Penolong Kanan tu? Dia kat bilik mesyuarat.
Me: Saya dah cari dah takde jugak. Tempat dia pun sama.
Subjek: Oh, dia pergi kursus.
Me: Yeke?
Subjek: (gelak sket) Kamu pergi office suruh dorang cover extra class hari ni dengan hari lain.
Me: okay

Eh, tak habis lagi eh. After the extra class, i had group work on oral practice with Musmay. When i was about to drink nearby the meja bulat, he called me, by saying Tc Rogiah was at her office.

"Ain, tu Tc Rogiah ade kat office", kata Subject kepada seketul Ain Atiqah.
"yup, ok", i said with broad smile.

Thank God, i've got to see you again, Subject :)

I thought that i want to hold on the blog for awhile since i need to give 120% focus on my monthly test that's going to start on this wednesday. But i can't seem to be so determined as i tricked myself by taking a break to update my blog.

Regarding the test, i cant wait for geography test paper cuz mkayy i've a small confession.

Recently i've crushed on my very own high school teacher for his charming and handsomeness aaaaaaaa and he's the one who's going to prepare the geography test paper hence i'm so excited to give an A for his test!

ok that's not exactly what i'm going to write about.

what do you guys ever think that make an individual perfect? ok here's the story about;

i get envious easily of people that have fully package of these three variables in their lives; wealth, intelligence & beauty. thus, making these people to have seemingly such perfect lives. One of them obviously have been closed to me ever since. Z, THE FREAK!

Yup, a girl with beauty and brain. Remember?

Z is such a perfect. She's beautiful, brilliant, coming from well educated family. She has the aura of possession, being selected in any school's position, always be the attention of other people and all but....

From hearsay of someone that happened to be my acquaintance, Z is having family crisis. i'm not going to write what she has been through in here. sebab, tak baek buka aib orang lain. But that one have opened my heart, my eyes and my mind for always being grateful for what we have now. Allah has grant everyone with His uncountable blessings, maka nikmat mana yang kamu dustakan?

Ya tuhan, ini semua hasutan syaitan.

Sometimes, i feel so baaaad for being selfish and get jealous of one of my lilysters. yeah, Z still consider lilysters though she has messed out with the cliques including me since childhood for being such sarcastic. i know where i stand, where my limit is and i think i should stop for envying Z cuz she's human being, imperfect and full of flaws. Err same goes to me. I should be happy with myself, my imperfections and flaws cuz at least i have perfect family and friends that has granted by Allah to me.

Is anyone here a Marooner?

i'm not sure if Maroon 5 fans are officially called Marooners cuz i know, only certain people used to call themselves by that name and it seems their fandom isn't as big as Selenator. 

Well Maroon 5 have Adam Levine as their vocalist and me as a fangirl but yet it still won't consider myself as Marooner cuz i never bought any Maroon 5 albums and also i'm not overly enthusiastic of Maroon 5 but only to their songs and handsome Adam Levine.

Ladies and gentlemen say hello to Adam :)

i'm sending kisses to my pretty ain atiqah

You get to meet so many people in your life and some of them are not necessary you like. Here's experience of my own having one.

Let's call her Z

Z was a new girl at my school. She was a beauty with brain. Her outstanding performance in academics has made herself much-loved by our teachers, friends and also my crush, Apip. When i was 10, we get to know each other since her class was next to mine.

Time went rapidly and i was 11. Z and i were classmates. By that time, 5H was the schools high ranking class in sktpp and i were considered a new student in 5H. i was one of my classmates who got ranked into the class as i passed my final exams with flying colours.

Z and i didnt talk much during our days because she was one of our school cliques. Her intelligence and beauty caught the attention of Apip. They were likely to like each other since they were 10. I found out that i was a third person of their relationship.

I didnt really mind because there were nothing i can do. i only kept myself busy with upcoming upsr exams. I believe good girl belongs to good boy and that's how it works is it?

A year went smoothly, the three of us passed our exams with flying colours. There were nothing i could ask more for getting straight a's in the upsr.

As time passes, Z and i meet again at the same secondary school and guess what? we're now again classmates .-.

does anyone having a nephew/niece around the same age as you? if yes, what's like of having one? It just makes everything confuse.

it is my ibu having a nephew whom i used to call her cik tini, who's i've been thinking she's my aunt for 15 years of my living! it is just because she's the same age as ibu so i thought she's my aunt. ugh shame on you ain. i also found out her daughter, hayati who's 7 years older than me is actually my first cousin once removed

what does "once removed" mean?

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