Halu elibedi, long time no see, sorry for the long hiatus mode. I got messed up in the 5th semester regarding our never-ending mini project(s) and that when the 1st half semester of the 3rd year is about to end, I couldn't be more grateful with the blessings of good the lab soulmates. For sure, they are the perfect balance of responsible and laid back.

The tight schedule and the out numbered mini project is doesn't matter when it comes to you guys. Speaking of mini project, who knows that we got 4 of 'em no no no I mean 5 including hygiene which I thought gonna be kacang hijau but it simply not. Oh why I always thought that hygiene gonna be easy peasy, though I'm not even good in memorizing facts. hukhuk


Semester 5 is such an intense, exhilarating and terrifying experience .... Why I said so?? Jeng jeng jeng

1. Lots of mini project regarding on how to cultivate culture. When I mean "cultivate" it really means cultivating the microbes. You know that even you got 11 brains in the group but only 7 to 8 of  'em really worked well and could figure out things to do next. Somehow, I felt that I'm not even helping as much as I could, hehehe even my brain is also malfunctioned as well, Hiks.

Also, I learnt that this one guy, my partner lab, Rafique or Rafi Que you see, I speak with most of his name ends with a Q like pronunciation. It was Nawwal who started to tease by calling him Rafi Que, the solid 'Q' at the end by his name, then you gotta see he's blushing out of sudden sebab kena usik dengan budak perempuan hahaha.

Oh speaking of Mr. Rafi Que, for me he's a mad genius! He usually prefers silence to saying the something which isn't being asked in the first place except when Sarah, she's the one who led the mini project would urge him to contribute his valuable piece of mind to solve troubles regarding our mini project which gave us continuous headache sometimes.

2. This girl, Zana who is two years older than me got her own way to make me chilled some of the time when the experiment went intense pain. But, Zana really took it chill in her own style. She's such a chilled-type of lab partner but I think selamber suits her well because she's down for anything. Tak takut, tak gentar, tak kusut walaupun ribut datang membadai. Kahkahkah ayat macam tak boleh nak hiperbola lagikan bunyik. 


Thing to say is that I really enjoyed every second of her accompany during our working on mini project. Things get confused sometimes, but when with her, "You don't know the next step?? Just wing it." Hahahaha sounds the way too chill Zana but never mind, it worth my babygurl!

3. Thanks to Sarah. For awhile now we have been putting into the same group since our Biochemistry in the 2nd year. Being Sarah, she's considered a beauty with brain. Not that hottie gurlzz who likes to wear make up on the face every single time they got to go to classes. Sarah is just like a Melayu tulen, for sure, she's ayu, got her own beauty ala-ala gadis Terengganurians who speak with most of 'g' like pronunciation dekat belakang but indeed garang. Heck ... even the best joke I ever tried to slip in about Terengganurians speaking, "kalau pinggang korang pronounce macam mana ek?? Dia bluetickkan aku weh.. hmmm sedih T_T

4. Anger issues. Oh this one doesn't relate with Rafi Que, Sarah, Zana, Nawwal, etc rather lab partners from bioproduct. The work still has to get done but miscommunication occurred over the simplest task like, who want to pick up our dried c. odorata leaves from oven at 8 am??

All in all, it worth all the effort. We won 2nd place for both mini project and dapat bawak balik dua hamper besaq banyak cekedis for a week lagi-lagi sekarang musim hujan kat Kelantan ni. Nom nom nom

Haven't written much, lately. Despite having extremely hectic magical days ongoing mini project with the colleagues, turned out we had a tight schedule to get this mini project done. I boleh estimate dalam 2-3 hari minggu yang lepas, I cuma ulang-alik lab tingkat 3, just to record the microbes profile growth. Bak kata Anggun dalam instastory beliau, our routine fixed with visiting anak-anak kat taska. Here, we need to grow our own culture strain for a week-long mini project as if they were our anak3, much made us kelam-kabut for the first six weeks of the 5th semester. All said, I'm too occupied by them that I couldn't spare the time with my precious Tangled Thoughts.

Only, yes, again, to do some reports regarding the lab work. sobs

Last weekend was a hectic one. Spent my last four-day weekend by sitting on meja belajar, doing on the individual discussion in the middle of the night. But, my brain can't work best without playing a background music of Only Human by Jonas Brothers. It was just like my body response to the music and felt the rythm in my head. Then, I found myself foot tapping at the same time nodding the head. And might sometimes accompany with dancing while singing along to it. Singing, a karaoke, so called karok by dak3 hipster nowadays rather than paying 100% fully attention to get my reports done.

Today's lecture sangat menusuk kalbu. I can tell that all my coursemate would feel the same as I did, but the Guy-With-A-Gummy-Smile, THIS GUY OMG! turned out to be seorang yang mudah terhibur pada hari kejadian barangkali since I heard him gelak terbahak-bahak during the enzyme class when it comes to enzyme teaching by Dr. Aini. Those enzyme jokes never get old, is it.

Today's lecture seems to be out of topic. Instead we were being taught on lignocellulosic enzyme, the lecturer brought us to think outside of the box for a while regarding the bioconversion of lignocellulosic biomass —from waste to wealth. If people asked me is there something to do between the lignocellulosic enzyme and the biomass, I would simply take a few minutes to think. Think ain think!

My random, general answer got to be lignocellulosic enzyme is a degrading enzyme used in plant dry matter, so called lignocellulosic biomass. As you can see, the word enzyme itself represents an important role in breaking down complex molecules into its monomer, so called the simpler molecule. Meanwhile the word lignin and cellulose referred to a complex organic polymer deposited in plants cell wall to which they supply the strength and rigidity of plant walls.

Yeah, bla bla bla bio stuff -,- so what?

Ok continue. The major plant cell walls however consist of three main lignocellulosic components —lignin, cellulose and hemicellulose. These compositions are differed for different types of biomass.  The dense layers of cellulose and hemicellulose are packed by layers of lignin hence, pretreatment is necessary to breaking down the lignin layers in order to expose both cellulose and hemicellulose. So, pretreatment is the first and most important step in lignocellulosic biomass processing. Why so?? Sebab lignocellulosic biomass is considered unfermentable as most of the microbes incapable to degrade it without pretreatment.

(Saya pun bermonolog sejenak, thinking so pretreatment yang macam mana that has to be taken to break down the lignin layers?)

At some point, that was probably one of the reasons why I insisted to go to the today's lecture, listening to enzyme stuffs. LOL

Ya allah, the last time I've so done listening to this part when my bed was calling my name and I insisted to get myself out from, yep my beautiful soft warm bed. You see, the problem was I couldnt get out of bed since the blankets have accepted me as one of their own belongings. Tapi disebabkan saya waras sikit masa tu, saya tetap paksa diri untuk datang lecture.

"Enzymatic hydrolysis has to be efficient, rapid and complete to preatreat the biomass..."

"Enzymes are added to hydrolyze the pretreated lignocellulosic biomass into fermentable sugars including glucose and/or oligomers that can be further converted into valuable products through biological and chemical approaches."

"Ibarat sampah yang dibuang, di kemudian hari boleh menjadi sesuatu yang berguna"

"Same goes to some of you that being a late bloomer in their age group. Cumanya, saya tak cakaplah awak3 ni sampah, kata Dr. Aini kepada anak3 didiknya."

And the whole class laughed towards the statement.

By time the Guy-With-A-Gummy-Smile laughed so hard, something had pierced my heart to such a deep, emotionally statement.

The point is, however, the late bloomers begin to do well in college or at work, they will go from a barely noticed individual to a star. They do not suddenly become smart or talented. And maybe I'm pretty sure that it can be triggered by some other events that happen in a specific period of time. Of course, the transformation from being barely noticed individual to a star isn't due to overnight magic.

Metaphorically, they get to use escalators while you’re taking flight of stairs to your life journey. When you’ve finally reach your final step, it’s supposed to be an accomplishment, right? 

Out of sudden, you know that when the reality hits you out of nowhere. It's just getting hard to pay 100% fully attention without my mind wandering to some other places. Ok berangan lagi dalam kelas.

This happened between me and Dr. A during our biannual major event in the university of  *******

(censored sebab I refuse to let people know where am studying, yang dah tahu sila tutup mulut anda guna adhesive tape)

Dalam banyak3 orang, kes Iman kena tarik berlakon untuk berlanggar basikal-moto dengan Chemat, under the scorching sun and getting surrounded by JPAM team, Dr. A came and approached me in his usual style, SMILING TOWARDS HIS FANS.

Then, came this one another guy, surely he hasn't been invited into our circle.

Dr A: *smile* showing some greetings to us.
Kereks: Fuh. Cuak takyah cakap lah, I'm freaking out man!
Dr A: Eh awak berdua muka sama, adek-beradek ke??
Kereks: Hmm taklah Dr.
Dr. A: Muka sama jer, sepupu ke??
Kereks: Pun tak juga. Kiteorg coursemate jer.
Dr. A: Muka macam sama, ada jodoh ni *chuckle to himself*
Kereks: *I were just like, euwww sama ke muka kiteorg?? Aku rasa aku lagi cantek kot compared to 'that guy'*

I'm so done with any wicked games of  'that guy' FULL STOP

As I write this, my dearest adik bongsu is about to sit for his UPSR in less than 24 hours. In my attempt to be a little melodramatic kakak, I told him, "check jawapan lepas habis jawab soalan, paling penting jangan careless."

Such cliche phrases you ever overheard being said back then, betul tak?

A scenario I've been able to witness when it came to my cikgu sekolah rendah over past 9 years ago. She overused those cliche phrases in order to give us a little push for the battle.

I can tell, they were all sweet expressions I ever heard. Today, being the eldest out of 4, it is my turn to say so, to my kid bro and the rest is up to him.

The Tumbleh thingy supposedly best read as TUMBLR.

My friend, Danial is shocked to know that I'm on tumblr after all this while. This happened when I was on a Whatsapp conversation with him on our first year in the university. I actually didn't expect him to react that way.

I were just like... "why bro?, is tumblr overrated for a girl like me?"

That was not my very first time intrigued with such question by those guy friends of mine, "kau ada tumblr ke??", "how come u can hv tumblr, ain??", "hehehehe ko buat apa do kat tumblr" with an evil grin on their faces. Being me, I simply couldn't figure out their intention so I chose to act naive, "apa? takfaham lah korang cakap apa"

Dah lelama sket, sel-sel otak mula berhubung. I got the answer already leh.

Last year, I been checked out an online article regarding 'How Tumblr went from being the most porn-friendly social media site to banning porn' on The Verge. As I said earlier, I didn't know anything if Tumblr allowed so much nudes. Pffttt

Speaking of Danial, he exactly suspicious of me, if I ever had looked up for nudes on Tumblr. "aigooo, what Danial what?!" The problem is that Tumblr isn't a pornographic community. It is less likely a combination of Instagram and Twitter which allow users to reblog their content in the form of blog. Ever since I saw one of my schoolmate, signed up Tumblr and reblogged each post regarding motivational/inspirational/islamic quotes, photography, fashion, design and yada yada yada her nice shots on tumblr to which the content of Tumblr itself inspired me alot!

And on one thing, I started to be the nerd who code Tumblr theme for fun at early 13. Not that expert but yet I know lah the closing tags bla bla bla. Coding is just fun as math (for me ye) coz we got to learn the language of computer.

Pastu I macam pikir "best gak Tumblr ni ek", kata seketul saya diusia lingkungan 13 tahun.

The fact that I signed up Tumblr over past 6 years ago. The blog is still available in 2019 (in case if you guys wanna stalk or follow mine, just do whatever u wanna do) but it is more likely to be abandoned for now :p

I rarely log into my Tumblr since most of people i used to know are likely to be on Instagram and Twitter. I guess none of them were on Tumblr or perhaps some don't know if Tumblr ever existed today. So yeah I might have Tumblr but not really into it as much as I spent on Instagram and Twitter.

The point is, it is yourself that control your own Tumblr blog. I personally rarely see such artistic nudes on Tumblr since I shield my dashboard through safe mode and most important, don't ever follow Tumblr blogs that post that kind of adult content. Hhahahah tak marah pun. Just my two cents je tau.

OK, Danial am I being clear?

Just in case you guys thought that i was nursing a baby human named Alap at this young age, you guys are wrong.

Alap is a 8 month-old cat I've been adopted last year and he fell sick when i was in my last week in Kelantan. Remember this guy i posted in here??? He's been so much manja now, especially when he dropped his body to the ground and rolled on his back, exposing his tummy, wanting to be rubbed. I would simply gave him a slight head/tummy rub to show him some gesture of, "You can put trust on me, bro!" then, you gotta see his cuteness overload like this!


But *ahem*, not when he started to scratch and bite me when i was about to treat his open wound. He was no longer cute to me, werk, bad Alap!

Okay, back to my sick Alap. He was truly sick in early July, to be exact — due to the presence of an abnormal lump on his neck (he's currently in healing process). The lump looked less likely a "beguk" and i were just like... "ooh,..kucing pun boleh ada beguk??" Well, at least that was what i been informed by ibu regarding Alap through phone when i was in Kelantan. In fact, i found that dogs might actually be able to get mumps, transmitted from humans but it is very uncommon. But cats?? I can't think of it.

When a dog is exposed to a person who is infected with a viral infection called the mumps, the dog may develop the same infection. This cross-over is very rare, but is known to occur occasionally.

In a meantime, ibu actually noticed something was wrong with Alap due to subtle changes in his behaviour — not be that interested in eating (eat very little), low energy level (seemed to be lying around a lot, sleeping and more tired than usual).

For one thing, it was understandable we would be worried about Alap. By the time i were back home from Kelantan, i found the lump ruptured deep under his skin, creating painful swelling area around the neck and it was getting larger. An abscess should i call, left a small hole through his skin which was kind of gross looking (i could see Alap's bloody trachea/oesophagus, whatever they called, i dont know), directly from my two naked eyes! Luckily, i'm okay of seeing blood in real life and tv, so yeah bring it on!



Ooh,...regarding the abscess, it appeared as a swollen spot, pus-filled lump under the surface of the skin bcs of wound infection by bacteria. What more, i assumed that he might had a fight with other cats since he has an access to the outside for mating purpose and then, got himself scratches or bites, either through the claws of another cat or himself (only God knows) thus, resulted in wounds which became infected. So, we went to the vet in order to determine the cause.


Alap received his first advanced treatment by draining the fluid abscess for dead tissue removal beneath the skin in proper sterile veterinary environment. Supposedly, a type of reconstructive skin surgery was required to close over the skin due to a large puncture wound that was left opened. But, i absolutely couldnt afford that skin surgery for him since the vet bills might cost me around RM300 - RM400!! Hence, the vet advised me if i could treat Alap at home by my own without underwent expensive surgery to which i just had to buy some medication and things i need to cleanse the open wound at the nearby pharmacy if necessary.



Cleansing the wound perhaps, would be the crucial part since i must perform the aseptic techniques to minimize the risk of the wound infection. Get everything to be sterilized. The part when i must get my both hands 99.99% of free-contaminants before a salve was applied around the open wound.

Remember when i said, he started to scratch and bite me when i was about to treat his open wound? I actually asked the help from Anis, Amirul or Ikki to "tie" his legs. Not to be mentioned, when Alap couldnt stay still when i dug around in his wound to clean it, otherwise he would struggle to release himself to which it only means he prepared to attack us real quick!...(that's another the whole different story).

Also, he did received an opportunity to wear "cone of shame" for the first time of his life! hhahahaha


Guess what?? Basically i learnt that checked out Alap at the vet had caused me a lot of money. Bless my sick Alap when his open wound could be dealt with at home. What i need to do was checking on the wound for every hour to prevent bleeding from Alap's scratching at it, cleaned and put bandage around his neck like this!



I know, i know sounds complex but within the sem break i've got free time on nursing Alap.

He's still in healing process now. It takes about 2-3 weeks to allow the open wound heal by its own. Still, he tries to take off the bandage around the neck by scratching onto it and i have to put it all over again up to 3 times a day. Oh, please Alap jangan buat hal lagi.

It was the end of semester struggle, where my fellow "unimates" celebrate their freedom. As I scroll through my Instagram, everyone... to be specific, Anggun posting her best pictures of the day, showing how happy she and her cliques were on the end of semester.

Ooh me??? i haven't snap a single picture at all. I mean, we had but one without me.

I don't have any trouble of others uploading their happy faces on Instagram or telling the whole world that you were celebrating the end of semester with your loyal companions. In fact, it was just like a tradition for most people in my uni to celebrate their last day with going somewhere, or makan-makan kepci with their cliques or coursemates. But since Ayu, Kiera and I had our last paper earlier than Kak Iman and Alya, we chose to cancel our mini celebration just to give them some space to get study. Again, i don't see any trouble with it. At least, i didn't have to wasting my time, looking for good places to eat near us. Umm that moment when we hadnt find a good place to eat, what came to my mind was that, "why girls can be so complicated when it comes to where and what to eat?? Hehehe... Toksah malu lah, i used to be like this too but i hate to take one's time just for my own good. On the good side, I didn't have to spend lots of money on eating luxury dishes since we had planned to makan ikan siakap 3 rasa which in my thought the menu was quite expensive for us as students. Thus, i preferred one during makan kat kedai with ayah.

The last two days before the end of semester struggle, i literally exhausted. I was all messed up regarding my last two papers. I thought that Downstream gonna be easy since it was all about facts and conceptual science studies. Hell yeah it was TEDIOUS as not what it seemed to be with hardcore calculation like addmath. In contrast, Physiology could be 10times better as what i expected.

I worked hard for finals till i forgot the exact details about when i should pulangkan my room keys, when to place my bicycle at blok A, list of things to bring home, what to do for the upcoming semester break? It seemed so much kelam kabut pastu sempat lagi main game sampai tidur pukul 4 pagi.

Since i have ended my 2nd year, same goes to what Anggun said on her Instagram, i dont really get into 4th sem compared to the previous one due to some unexpected events, assignment, mini project yada yada yada and when it was stated as "mini" i couldnt agree more. It just a huge one with the complexity of the do's and dont's, certain requirements and scheme to make things absolutely miserable for all of us?? Last minute video preparation, report, report, report and presentation. Those tasks drained up all my energy and yeah 4th sem sucks!



P/S im now at home and it seems my blogging mode has been activated.

Ok rite. End of beraya with the Lilysters. So i may proceed with the family, shall we??


So here's our Raya big family portrait.


I know, i know, right. Iqbal with his turqoise outfit, Amirul's golden yellow, ibu pink, Anis songsang sket and mine purple as similar to ayah's, we are kind of family yang tak sedondon baju raya since ibu doesnt like it. Ibu cakap sedondon macam nak buat marhaban pulak hahhaha.. Tapi takpelah as long as no argument between ayah and the siblings, kiteorg ok je. But next raya we proceed to sama kaler, boleh tak??
Ok we are done about beraya in kampung till raya D-2! say hello to another big families from belah Ayah!

I've been silent from the blog.

Almost a month and a half from now.

Alright, first there was the lecture, then the lab, so when there's lab, here comes the laboratory scientific report, then the mini project, then the presentation, then the bla bla bla... No I can't recall them all anymore. Sigh.

Now where do I begin? Home?

Umm, Hye (?) I'm back home sebab cuti midsem. Ahhh I feel so good to be at home, surrounded with my bulus (cats, I own cats, don't you know, people!) and family. When there's family, there's love.

And when there's love, there's life. 

Absolutely, there is a connection between —love and life. I always say, when there's love in my heart, I'm feeling particularly good in comprehending life. MY LIFE. But, everything's been so messed up lately. I just can't fathom what's wrong with my life  ME!

*OTP dengan ibu before final exam*

Kereks: Ibu, balik ni akak nak makan siput sedut!
Ibu: Ha eloklah. Nanti balik 'kita' masak sama-sama. Anis pun ada kat rumah boleh tolong buangkan belakang siput.
Kereks: Akak, nak order dengan makan je boleh? Tapi taknak tolong masak.

...

Ok la ok la, kalau nak makan siput sedut kena rajin tolong buangkan lumpur dengan 'ekor' siput.

Just realised I have completely forgotten about game of repeating which I've written in 2018. So, I think I should probably make a wrap of part II in 2019 since now, I'm staying at home with no fixed routine for the semester break.

Hokie dokie.. finally I’m home at last. So, selama ni kau pergi mana??