So, to Apip, get well soon  💪💪

P/S; pls don't make me cry over you, AGAIN.

They said the month of October is considered the most depressing month. The commitment between two —classes and silat tournament reaaallyy threw me off the track. Both need to be settled down at the end of October and i cant make it on time for those grouping assignments, english presentation, midterm, lab report and such. The pain, anxiety, stress and fatigue have driven me crazy since i refused to join KPM-UTHM international silat game in the first place and i wasnt prepare myself physically and mentally for a week stressful of a training center. Ughhhh, the 7.30am jog every morning had turned me into a monster but yet nothing i can do except finishing what i've been started.

So, i leave you guys with these pictures below, hehe :)






Next game will be at UKM!

So these past few days i went to Bachok, Kelantan with A. Faiz, being his loyal supporter 😏😏 in iMac Young Motivator Competition and during the event, we were entertained by the boys band (i honestly forgot their each member's name), singing to Akim & The Majistret's newest single, RAMPAS. 

Still on Day 14 at uni, the Wednesday was full load of classes from 9am to 5pm which was a real drag at the moment, including three hours of microbiology lab session at 2pm. And i barely had a glass of teh ais during lunch since i couldnt make it on time if i took heavy meals, pastu nanti tak sempat nak habiskan makanan and solat zohor within an hour of lunch break. Alasan cliché seorang student.

Later in the evening, my two colleagues were asking me if i wanted to join them lepak plus food hunting in the café cuz they only had snacks dan saya tak sentuh nasi langsung dari pagi tadi. Kesian3. (semua benda nak bagitau kat sini, GEDIK!)

Err,..shall i go straight to the point?? indeed, the pleasure is all mine.

Ok. I know this one guy by his name. People, meet The-Guy-With-A-Gummy-Smile. When i call him “The-Guy-With-A-Gummy-Smile”, apparently he has too much gum tissues shows above his top teeth whenever he smiles or known as gingival display in doctor speak, cewahh

Which is not the main point of today's post to be honest. Like who's even care if he has that kind of gum, right?

Speaking of the guy, we are classmates, i know his name, he knows mine, we both live in Selangor, we made some friends of the same person we befriended, bla bla bla and poof! We are acquainted. Yes he’s happened to be my acquaintance cuz I prefer acquaintance and have absolutely nothing to do with him. We have been talked like few times during grouping assignment in semester 1 but not even exchanged smiles.

So in the class, everyone thought The-Guy-With-A-Gummy-Smile is charming, a star athlete, playing basketball at uni and at the same time he's brainy. He’s freaking famous that any girl in my class as well as girls from other courses could fall for him. Except me, i’ve no offense but i dont even care of his existence in the class. Weird girl i think.

The fact that he is so used to minding his own business and apart of me, want to be feminine energy, *berfikiran cetek* *lelaki sepatutnya tegur perempuan dulu* *alasan perigi mesti mencari timba* *suka buat hal sendiri* memang taklah nak tegur dulu. Back to the point, we have been getting into the same group, working on biochem experiment in lab, group presentation, video and such, but we never talked to each other cuz there was something that wasnt right about him or perhaps it was all about myself having such huge ego??

Something refreshing The-Guy-With-A-Gummy-Smile had ever did was, he was the one who made a move between us. Asking proper question -- "kau duduk mana wei?", "kau ok ke?" and texted me for the first time via whatsapp, minta maaf untuk hal sekian3 which i thought it was only a small matter and he supposed didnt have to minta maaf kot cuz yeah, i know where i stand. Being women are complicated, "dah minta maaf pun salah, tak minta maaf pun salah, kau nak apa sebenarnya ain atiqah?"

And i just found out the answer is within me, for being too much GARANG towards him (that’s what Sarah ever told me before)

The fact why i haven't shown any interest in greeting The-Guy-With-A-Gummy-Smile is because he reminds me of someone resembled him. Like two peas in a pod. Remember my highschool teacher?? The world is getting smaller as they resemble to each other. I dont know if they are related, perhaps they got to be distance relatives or else but i just cant make a move when he's around.

Sarah who used to be the only girl The-Guy-With-A-Gummy-Smile close to, or i should say WAS, said that we do share the similar personality traits -- keras kepala, degil, suka buat hal sendiri. Again i thought we are cut from the same cloth, both acting in a very similar way :p

i'm not sure if we are like peas in a pod since we are slightly differ from physical characteristic (except both being nerdy and wearing specs) but surely as similar as character. I just feel the need to write about this on blog just in case i've forgotten WE are acting in very similar way that we become disguised to ourselves.

i'm in my bed, tossing and turning around thinking of what have ibu and ayah been up to? What have Ayoi and Anis been doing recently? Are they certainly can survive without playing Fortnite on ipad since i brought it with me in this semester and also my bro, Iqbal. Can he really get his lazy ass out of couch immediately, helping ibu in the kitchen? Uuh well, the night thoughts are killing me right now.


I left home with a contented heart full of love and have been missing home badly in less than 24 hours. I always wanted to go home no matter how hard it was to cope with the tight schedule of mine, cuz it's always feel good to be back at home, looking at all those familiar faces again. I miss to pick fights with Ayoi, as if he would remain calm and patient with typical immature behaviour in me, though he's the youngest. And i miss to interrupt Anis playing Fornite on ipad at night before we both going to bed.


Speaking of the family, i almost forget to mention that i've been missing these three cute little kittens; Alap, Oyin otherwise known Lemonade and Uteh. They are already a month if i am not mistaken and they are all doing good with their cat's senses, smelling for solid food instead of mommy's milk, playing around with hooman and effortlessly climbing the box to explore the outside world. No wonder there's a proverb saying curiosity kills the cat but satisfaction brought be back.

The Sleeping Alap

The Sleeping Oyin Lemonade

The Sleeping Uteh

Speaking of cat, i miss mak too. Ooh well, mak refers to the mommy cat, not my ibu ok. Hahahaha i know, there are lot of names to choose from, but i ended up choosing the name "mak"?? Hahaha it was Ayoi keep calling the mommy cat as mak and yet Ayah does call her as mak as well. I dont know why Ayoi keep calling her mak, perhaps mak is so motherly to her kittens and she would take care of her babies with her warm hugs like these pictures below.

Kasih ibu sampai ke syurga

Back to mak, there was a day, she welcomed us home with excitement by running towards us asking for food and she seemed to understand what ibu had been told her about leaving the kittens at home the other day we off to kampung for a few days.

*delayed post*

This gonna be the last quality time Fatin and i have spent together, since both of us kene balik uni masing-masing on Sept 7th.

At first there was a plot twist happened. It was Amirul asking the lilysters in the Whatsapp group to go out for watching Munafik 2.

Amirul: siapa ada kat Putra Perdana?
Fatin: aku
Amirul: kita bermunafik jom
Musmay: nak aku jadi spoiler tak?
Qurratu: bila?
Amirul: isnin ke selasa
Qurratu: Aduh aku free harini and esok je. Ahad dah balik yuyayei

Then Shaukath interrupted the conversation and replied one of Qurratu's messages

Shaukath: jarang tak onz

Knowing that everybody wont make it on Monday and Tuesday, so Fatin and i keluar berdua je ala2 sweet de amour gituu hehe. Btw, Amirul came up with plan A to plan B; a date with his Johorean gf. Amboi :p

At the same time, Fatin was the one that urge to ask me out for the last time before our new semester begins. i asked her, so what's the plan and where are we going to?

"alaaa, kita proceed tengok munafik, jom"

"ok ok, tapi teman aku dulu bukak akaun bank islam kat Cyberjaya"

So that was how the plan went to, at first we went to Islamic Bank in Cyberjaya to get my things done. Tunggu lama giler weh nak bukak akaun, so both of us took selfies to relieve the boredom in the middle of adults, settling down their businesses.

In few hours of waiting, and finally get my things done, Fatin and i went to Dpulze to get some food at Campur-Campur Kitchen.

Didnt i tell you that i was sulking over my dad for unintentionally cracked my ipad screen???? And this made me down that i felt completely heartbroken. But now, i've no reason to remain sullen since, the ipad looks likely a brand new again. To all Malaysians, Selamat Hari Merdeka yang ke-61

This raya haji has been the most happening since we finally took turn celebrating hari raya haji, sebelah ibu in Pahang. ooh right, just like in previous years, raya haji isnt a big deal to balik kampung since i've no atoks and neneks to visit to, so we were likely to spend the whole day visiting families and relatives in KL or else staying at home, watching tv. Walla!

But this raya, we decided to balik kampung to fulfil the walimatul'urus of my very own cousin, Kak Yaya and errr, husband! Welcome to the legacy, Abang Raja!

from left; Kak Baby, Baby Qaseh, Ika, Kak Yaya & Qila

Apart the wedding, i finally get to see the young woo in a single picture framed by Mak Andak. and yup, woo refers to nenek in bahasa kampar. i've been mentioned what's behind the woo thingy before and also our family roots. hehehe, so why not you check them out in here?

My woo was on the right, wearing selendang and the boy in the picture was Pak Dahlan.

Pak Dahlan is a father to Kak Yaya and a big brother to my mum. He's humorous and can tell good jokes in an intelligent way. i remember everytime i met him during hari raya, he would make a joke of my brother, Iqbal with his catchphrase "kita ada kawan nama dia iqbal, dia duduk kolumpoq" hahahaha :p

And people, meet my same age cousin, Aqila. She used to be my geng main masak-masak since childhood. Here was the photo taken in 2012, so much relatable is it?