A daughter’s first love.

  by   Monday, April 15, 2019   No comments
Source, Facebook

“ Old as she was, she always missed her dad sometimes. ” 
Gloria Naylor


Still NOOB

  by   Monday, April 08, 2019   No comments
Today is Apip's 21st birthday. FYI we were born in the same year so, that makes us sebaya... Except that he's 27 days younger than me. Being officially 21 has turned him into a grown man, very mature enough to do a wise decision-making in life but, yet still innocent in a lot of ways (this also includes me —he's never stop calling me noob. Such a kiddo la, Pip.


Speaking of his 'noob'ness, Apip got his own silly way to wish me on my birthday, which amused me only in less than 5 minutes before i came out with my own assumption...

 "was he teasing me on my birthday??"

This recent he added me into my own birthday group, which he named "HAPPY BIRTHDAY" on Whatsapp. The group only participated the two of us and here's go the tricky little steps. 

1. He added me into the group
2. He made me an admin 
3. He called me,

"NOOB, still NOOB"

4. And, he did left the group

Aaaa, such a lousy birthday wish from Mr. Apip, for the sake of making me to look like a-little-miss-loner-havent-get-a-single-birthday-wish-on-her-birthday. I KNOW RIGHT, THAT WAS NOT COOL MAN CMON I DESERVE LOTS OF GIFTS ON MY BIRTHDAY!

Anywoo, i have a confession regarding Apip's birthday. 

I've aged so much that i cant recall his birth date. I wondered if it was either on April 4th or 8th. It's just my memory has deteriorated this lately, i guess?? As a return to his 'lousy' birthday wish, i indeed did the same. Created a Whatsapp group for the birthday boy. LOL


Another lousy birthday wish from the Kereks to Mr. Apip. A loner birthday boy might fit him on his 21st birthday and yet still a kiddo and most important, he's still a noob to me!

I dont know why we were acting like two kiddos whom calling each other by names; noob, kiddo, lame, etc though we are now old enough to deal with each other emotion but being a rebellious me, one needs to be sabar, sabar and sabar. Some of the time, I think that Apip is all true about me, i'm still NOOB and always will be.

Post —turmoil

  by   Saturday, April 06, 2019   No comments
I've been silent from the blog.

Almost a month and a half from now.

Alright, first there was the lecture, then the lab, so when there's lab, here comes the laboratory scientific report, then the mini project, then the presentation, then the bla bla bla... No I can't recall them all anymore. Sigh.

Now where do I begin? Home?

Umm, Hye (?) I'm back home sebab cuti midsem. Ahhh I feel so good to be at home, surrounded with my bulus (cats, I own cats, don't you know, people!) and family. When there's family, there's love.

And when there's love, there's life. 

Absolutely, there is a connection between —love and life. I always say, when there's love in my heart, I'm feeling particularly good in comprehending life. MY LIFE. But, everything's been so messed up lately. I just can't fathom what's wrong with my life  ME!


"Everything's been so messed up here lately,
Pretty sure he don't wanna be my baby" — I'm a mess, Bebe Rexha 


NO. I dont want to be anyone's baby and I dont care for not being one. Likely, I can love myself better than anyone else, kot. 

And, I really did good in self-loathing, too 

Shoot me, I'm dying inside.

I don't know. A lot has been happening, and believe it or not, I've had watched multiple season episodes of Avatar: The Last Airbender on my iPad, only that when I refused to do my lab report —somehow I left them hanging in order to get myself some entertainment by watching Aang defeated Fire Lord Ozai. Kahkah. Her inner feelings couldnt be aged much, is it? Sigh. 

Except that when it comes to serious matter, she could be as furious as lion.

Not the point though. 

I remember on watching Avatar, one thing that I can't never forget was Fire Prince Zuko dealing with a great emotional turmoil of his. As a result, he couldnt find his own destiny. 

Ahhh I'm so bad talking about life. I've no wisdom of experience since I'm only turned 21 in less than a month. Just now, I talked about the connection of love and life, later the miserable life I lived in, then I talked idiot about The Avatar (#merepek)

But, the message I wanna highlight of it after been watching of Zuko's life in The Avatar, all I can say to my future self is that...


You choose your own destiny. 

Keep it on track.

And, lastly have faith in The Almighty.  


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