I'd like to say that, i'm too busy to write but it would be a "lame excuse" since I've started writing a dedication blogpost most definitely to my future self, who I believe will definitely take some time off, reading my old blogpost, reminiscing all those good times, wondering how much I have changed over years, especially being 20 in 2018 (cuz I once said, being 20 sucks :p)

It's just as a sum up: of how meaningful 2018 has been.

The other day, i went to Bachok with A. Faiz to watch him in action on pentas pengucapan awam, was actually a series of small measureable steps in our relationship. If you know something to do with yeah yeah and yeahs then, you know what i'm talking about. Ehek ehek ehek

So, i got a thing with A. Faiz and vice versa, opps! ummmm..... actually we DO HAVE a thing between us but it isnt quite dating yet, but we have both established an exclusive relationship but not-so-complete lah cemtu.. But if you guys tahu saya jenis yg macam mana, which really just means, coldly sarcastic in her own way, kereks, muka ketat, best known for her fake smile in the campus, etc..tak tahu pun how to properly convey my feelings towards A. Faiz rather than leaving him with my unspoken thoughts when he did all those funny and cheesy pick up lines to tease me, eh yeke? cia3...

Despite of all that pick up lines, for me A. Faiz isn't that hambar at all (sometimes, he's hambar juga lah) cuz he's be able to tolerate with me at times i want to merajuk over simple thing like behaving such a baby gurl, doing something yang merepek macam curi2 replying his messages via Whatsapp, saying 'hi syg', 'te amo' and such to boys and girls in his phone contacts.. Pastu buat2 muka senyum kambing when we are having conversation and the hardest part i think he cant brain much when i referred myself as siput sedut LIKE. ALWAYS sebab memang i rasa i macam siput sedut pun tak menarik macam those pretty girls, kan hiks.

Then, at times we got to sit and walk next to each other in classes or any uni events, i became so humble bcs of he's mpp, won for our campus election for 2018/2019 session with the highest votes, secure a place in top list of presenting, well-known in the campus and bla bla bla compared to me, being siput sedut since 16 y/o (im so good in self-critic guys) have made me rasa macam siput sedut digandingkan dengan dato' cuz to me, A. Faiz always acting like ala-ala dato' especially in his mpp video.

K, sorry for the merepek-ness.


Now, if you're reading this, A. Faiz;


After all those random things we have been shared and all the way across 'malas-nak-layan' thingy for a short while by you , I would like to thank you for a lot of other things you ever did, hehehe!