This happened between me and Dr. A during our biannual major event in the university of  *******

(censored sebab I refuse to let people know where am studying, yang dah tahu sila tutup mulut anda guna adhesive tape)

Dalam banyak3 orang, kes Iman kena tarik berlakon untuk berlanggar basikal-moto dengan Chemat, under the scorching sun and getting surrounded by JPAM team, Dr. A came and approached me in his usual style, SMILING TOWARDS HIS FANS.

Then, came this one another guy, surely he hasn't been invited into our circle.

Dr A: *smile* showing some greetings to us.
Kereks: Fuh. Cuak takyah cakap lah, I'm freaking out man!
Dr A: Eh awak berdua muka sama, adek-beradek ke??
Kereks: Hmm taklah Dr.
Dr. A: Muka sama jer, sepupu ke??
Kereks: Pun tak juga. Kiteorg coursemate jer.
Dr. A: Muka macam sama, ada jodoh ni *chuckle to himself*
Kereks: *I were just like, euwww sama ke muka kiteorg?? Aku rasa aku lagi cantek kot compared to 'that guy'*

I'm so done with any wicked games of  'that guy' FULL STOP

The Tumbleh thingy supposedly best read as TUMBLR.

My friend, Danial is shocked to know that I'm on tumblr after all this while. This happened when I was on a Whatsapp conversation with him on our first year in the university. I actually didn't expect him to react that way.

I were just like... "why bro?, is tumblr overrated for a girl like me?"

That was not my very first time intrigued with such question by those guy friends of mine, "kau ada tumblr ke??", "how come u can hv tumblr, ain??", "hehehehe ko buat apa do kat tumblr" with an evil grin on their faces. Being me, I simply couldn't figure out their intention so I chose to act naive, "apa? takfaham lah korang cakap apa"

Dah lelama sket, sel-sel otak mula berhubung. I got the answer already leh.

Last year, I been checked out an online article regarding 'How Tumblr went from being the most porn-friendly social media site to banning porn' on The Verge. As I said earlier, I didn't know anything if Tumblr allowed so much nudes. Pffttt

Speaking of Danial, he exactly suspicious of me, if I ever had looked up for nudes on Tumblr. "aigooo, what Danial what?!" The problem is that Tumblr isn't a pornographic community. It is less likely a combination of Instagram and Twitter which allow users to reblog their content in the form of blog. Ever since I saw one of my schoolmate, signed up Tumblr and reblogged each post regarding motivational/inspirational/islamic quotes, photography, fashion, design and yada yada yada her nice shots on tumblr to which the content of Tumblr itself inspired me alot!

And on one thing, I started to be the nerd who code Tumblr theme for fun at early 13. Not that expert but yet I know lah the closing tags bla bla bla. Coding is just fun as math (for me ye) coz we got to learn the language of computer.

Pastu I macam pikir "best gak Tumblr ni ek", kata seketul saya diusia lingkungan 13 tahun.

The fact that I signed up Tumblr over past 6 years ago. The blog is still available in 2019 (in case if you guys wanna stalk or follow mine, just do whatever u wanna do) but it is more likely to be abandoned for now :p

I rarely log into my Tumblr since most of people i used to know are likely to be on Instagram and Twitter. I guess none of them were on Tumblr or perhaps some don't know if Tumblr ever existed today. So yeah I might have Tumblr but not really into it as much as I spent on Instagram and Twitter.

The point is, it is yourself that control your own Tumblr blog. I personally rarely see such artistic nudes on Tumblr since I shield my dashboard through safe mode and most important, don't ever follow Tumblr blogs that post that kind of adult content. Hhahahah tak marah pun. Just my two cents je tau.

OK, Danial am I being clear?

It was the end of semester struggle, where my fellow "unimates" celebrate their freedom. As I scroll through my Instagram, everyone... to be specific, Anggun posting her best pictures of the day, showing how happy she and her cliques were on the end of semester.

Ooh me??? i haven't snap a single picture at all. I mean, we had but one without me.

I don't have any trouble of others uploading their happy faces on Instagram or telling the whole world that you were celebrating the end of semester with your loyal companions. In fact, it was just like a tradition for most people in my uni to celebrate their last day with going somewhere, or makan-makan kepci with their cliques or coursemates. But since Ayu, Kiera and I had our last paper earlier than Kak Iman and Alya, we chose to cancel our mini celebration just to give them some space to get study. Again, i don't see any trouble with it. At least, i didn't have to wasting my time, looking for good places to eat near us. Umm that moment when we hadnt find a good place to eat, what came to my mind was that, "why girls can be so complicated when it comes to where and what to eat?? Hehehe... Toksah malu lah, i used to be like this too but i hate to take one's time just for my own good. On the good side, I didn't have to spend lots of money on eating luxury dishes since we had planned to makan ikan siakap 3 rasa which in my thought the menu was quite expensive for us as students. Thus, i preferred one during makan kat kedai with ayah.

The last two days before the end of semester struggle, i literally exhausted. I was all messed up regarding my last two papers. I thought that Downstream gonna be easy since it was all about facts and conceptual science studies. Hell yeah it was TEDIOUS as not what it seemed to be with hardcore calculation like addmath. In contrast, Physiology could be 10times better as what i expected.

I worked hard for finals till i forgot the exact details about when i should pulangkan my room keys, when to place my bicycle at blok A, list of things to bring home, what to do for the upcoming semester break? It seemed so much kelam kabut pastu sempat lagi main game sampai tidur pukul 4 pagi.

Since i have ended my 2nd year, same goes to what Anggun said on her Instagram, i dont really get into 4th sem compared to the previous one due to some unexpected events, assignment, mini project yada yada yada and when it was stated as "mini" i couldnt agree more. It just a huge one with the complexity of the do's and dont's, certain requirements and scheme to make things absolutely miserable for all of us?? Last minute video preparation, report, report, report and presentation. Those tasks drained up all my energy and yeah 4th sem sucks!



P/S im now at home and it seems my blogging mode has been activated.

Didnt i tell you that i was sulking over my dad for unintentionally cracked my ipad screen???? And this made me down that i felt completely heartbroken. But now, i've no reason to remain sullen since, the ipad looks likely a brand new again. To all Malaysians, Selamat Hari Merdeka yang ke-61

I'm on my sixth week of semester break in 2018, and too many negative vibes already have made me feel uncomfortable. I've received an online academic calender for session 2018/2019 from Danial via whatsapp and guess what??? the first day of lecture is on Sept 10th. Ok ok chill do ain, in fact that i have report, video and forms that must be handed over to Dr Aini since the submission is around week two of semester 3 😢😢



then, i got a message from an acquaintance, asked me if i had register an elective sekian3 for semester 3

"kau tak amik elektif sekian3 ke sem 3 nanti???"

"err tak, aku nak amik balik microbiology"

then she asked,"kau kene repeat balik ke microbe?"

Hahahahahaha jujur rasa macam tak guna 😥😥

I've passed since i met the subject requirement in the first semester but it just me, myself, want to try for a higher grade by retaking microbiology so that there's some improvement in my CGPA. Get it? Get it? ok, good then.

Then i remember, what has been told by Cikgu Dzul during my days in matriculation.

Pray for me guys:)

p/s Nak cakap depan-depan tapi tak berani, sebab risiko dia terlalu tinggi, so saya minta undur diri.

I'm going into my fifth week somewhere in Jelifornia

Feels like I haven't written much for a while. Not sure if I was busy caught up with lectures, assignments, getting involved with university events and so on.. or it's just me being lazy all the time in the bed while browsing web. Ugh

These past few days I got lonely, lost, begin to lose hope in the future and find it hard to enjoy any aspect of life. Actually, I have something to do with those lab reports, specifically on biochemistry but I need to wait for Desh, who is in charge for the result, calculation and graph regarding our previous experiment. And what more, he asked us to email him our individually discussion by tomorrow but.. hey, have you done your part yet, bruhh??



On my mind, I should give him a hand so that I can make his life become easier not even that, I think I can lighten the emotional burdens of our group but finally he said he was doing good. We do have our whatsapp group but it seems everyone refused to participate into conversation and discussion. So I've make up my mind to get a help from Sarah, ask her if she has done her part yet.

Doing degree is not the best part of my life, like seriously I'm known among friends for dislike this place where I currently study. What really goes inside my head is that am I investing the worthlessness in the future? Like in the future living in modern life, have a degree and become jobless? Whoaa, if you have high CGPA that shouldn't be a problem. yada yada yada nothing is easy in this world, ok, if only you're willing to pay for the price (effort) then the success should be yours (qouting Dr Wong)

When I was down I started to look back for the kifarah on what I've done before. Hehehe sounds funny (for me) but the reality is checked!



Due to the unbearable loneliness, I Whatsapped Danial. He concluded that I was too miserable and he suggested if I should go out and get some fresh air.



Talking about Danial, we were no longer spent time together - more to work on our genetics assignment, as he quitted for Biotechnology and went for Agrotechnology but yet he still in the same campus where I currently study. To be honest, only few people I considered to talk to, people like Danial, Sarah, A.Faiz. Just take a look during this semester I currently work on three labs (genetics, chemistry and biochemistry presentation) with A. Faiz and Sarah. God bless me. And now here's coming the awkward ending part. Pray for me guys!

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Daku tergelak sendiri dengan soalan kuiz ni. Pasaipa aku gelak?? Sebabnya aku cuma ingat 4 dari 7 element ni. Itulah kecik-kecik orang suruh hafal periodic table tapi otak hang taknak hadam. Boleh pulak awak mispelled Tennessine, Ts jadi Tennesse (hang ingat bola tennis apaa??) lol, hang habaq hang dah boleh kutip untuk 4 points. Lagi, hang cuma ingat Nihonium, Nh .. Moscovium, Mc ... Organesson, Og ... lagi 0.5 point untuk simbol Tennessine, Ts .. so overall hang kutip 3.5 points out of 5 points. Adoi itulah jangan overconfident sangat, awak ni kan grrr

Ans:

• 112- Copernicium, Cn
• 113- Nihonium, Nh
• 114- Flerovium, Fl
• 115- Moscovium, Mc
• 116- Livermorium, Lv
• 117- Tennessine, Ts
• 118- Organesson, Og

Principle of Chemistry - ini kuiz akhir untuk last lecture Dr Wong. Why you're leaving so soon Dr Wong???😭😭😿😿 Saya paling suka Dr ajar saya chemistry afterall i'm really bad at this (sobbing) I couldnt believe that I'm going to open a new book again for al-kimiya. What the hell with those moles, calculation, stoichiometry, acid and base  😮😮

BIOCHEMISTRY - Ini satu hal depa ni siblings of chemistry ke apaa?? I dont know why if i see the word "Chemistry" i tend to rebel much on this subject 😒😒 Anything related with the bicarbonate buffer system, the citric acid cycle, buat lab report sampai muntah bla bla bla i cried and bye people


Introduction to Genetics - Hello father of genetics, Gregor Johann Mendel 😙 a big thank to his genetic experiments on Pisum savitum. He had discovered the fundamentel laws of inheritance. The term genetics itself sounds complex. Especially with those DNA cant be seen with our naked eyes. It may seem i've got to occupy some spaces in my brain to memorize certain parts of DNA, DNA made up of proteins, stages in mitosis and meiosis, the law of dominance, segregation and independent assortment, how's they correlating to each other yada yada yada i think i've fallen in love with genetics.

Algebra - the most killing subject goes to him. Why there's any stereotype saying Asian are good at maths? I'm dying at ultimate level.

ENTREPRENEUR BEHAVIOUR - you'll shall be passed if you're thinking like an entrepreneur lol. Sebab Madam Su kata subject ni senang score compared to Asas Keusahawanan. Ok. ok. ok as long as im ok then im alrightt

English II - What the heck muet lagiii awwwwwwwrghhhhhhh

SEMINAR REVOLUSI INDUSTRI 4.0 - hmm pihak atasan nak memperkasakan lagi ekonomi industri ke arah 4.0 kot. All the best M'sia

Volleyball (B) - Cegu kata even kita kelas B dia takkan kasi kita B because y'alls deserve an A yeahhh! MAJULAH SUKAN UNTUK NEGARA!

Sekian buku aduan pelajar dari saya specifically to those subjects related in semester 2 huhuuhu. Bye i'm out for horror movie date hiks

I'm writing this with Intan and I sit on the bed, opposite to one another. Yes, ladies and gentlemen we finally make our way through a place we called home. Our semester break is over. I would like to wish you a very warm welcome back to the second semester, new families and existing families alike!


In fact, I've got a day before the lecture begins on Sunday. First sunday week of the new semester is purrrrfect as if no lecture early at 8am, yeay, but, but we'll have our very first lab class at 2pm which is chemistry, hell noooo

counting down the days till the beginning of my 2nd semester on sunday. i'm quite nervous, half-worried and my vision is getting blurry on what to do for my 2nd semester in order to survive for degree. As my result for last semester has been announced, i'm pretty worrried to face killer subjects; which are those considering i need to start all over chemistry again such as Biochemistry and The Principles of Chemistry, and we were just like... zing!
I DONT LIKE CHEMISTRY, fullstop. BUT...

i used to love chemistry once when i was in MJSC. I found chemistry was fun with the best teaching of Teacher Noraini, and that time, I had Mardiyana to guide me for every single thing in chem. Everything went smooth that i could afford an A and that was how chem and i tied a knot (sound serious eh) somehow when i was in KMNS, our mutualistic relationship was on the rocks thus, we decided to leave each other (i got B in chem)


And hey, God knows best is it? i met chemistry for the third time when doing degree. i were just like... ehem ehem you're gotta be doomed by him again ain. woahhh Ya Allah gimme strength in handling these both. Umm forget to mention, algebra (the biggest fear of all) weh, that one a kind of subject i can always be pasrah as i know i cant do it. i think i'm going to flunk my algebra aka aljabar for my 2nd semester (hey takkan dah mengalah awal2 kot)

is it just me or algebra and calculus are actually killing everyone?

Hafizat: Tunggu laaa kesedihan ko jumpe bnde plg pelik dlm algebra....
Kereks: Bapak ah. aku ingat algebra ok sikit dari calculus
Hafizat: Algebra lg susah. Tp jgn nangis ar... Nnt mcm2 ko jumpe

Umm i have a small confession 👳

Mek gesel. Knp kene mek gesel? Hahahahahaha lawak dowh nama len xde?
;Entahlah ikan patin tu memang nak kena cubit ni.

What do you think if a girl confess her feelings towards a boy yg dye suke?
;idk la as for me la, nampak macam tak manis.nampak macam desperate.better hold on feeling tu. sabar is priority.

Syukur-syukurku selalu. Kerna kau sempurnakan ku....
;dengan apa yang ku perlu..

Are you at home?
;ye semalam balik

Bersabarlah sayang~~~
;aku akan pulang

Buatlah wechat ain :(
;Taknak la banyak stranger yang miang. aku adalah tapi tulah tak bukak bukak.


Wtvs la ain. My birthday jangan lupa tau!!!
;Iyolah. I kalau bab mengingat birthday orang ni memang selalu melekat dalam kepala.

Ok fine.. kasi aku 1 conversation yg paling sweet mcm gula2 kapas....
;Since ni yang paling win. masa ni aku rasa macam nak jentik je kau.


Kau ingat kau sweet ke ain? hahahahahahahahahhsahahahahahshahadgshdf
;Bukti ke-sweet-tan aku. Ceh aku sweet tau saje taknak tunjuk weekkk



Who's person that you have been thinking right now?
; Arwah Dannial

woi sayang dah balik kl ke belum?
;Petang semalam la kak pah

Nur Liyana Ameera
;jangan curi anak saya.

ibu adam dah angkat batang penyapu . Lari lari.
;kelakar weh

kau serius ke? thanks. first time org ckp mcm tu. May Allah bless u and ur family
;amin insyaallah. lepas ni jadi bilal ya

tak nak tak nak .. ibu adam marah huahuahua
;haip ibu adam ni garang orangnya.

ayat sweet yg awk rasa..
;aku sebat kau dengan batang penyapu.

ibu adam ni muda sangat rupanya , melting
;hahaha aku bagitahu laki aku.

wah anak awak mesti dah f1 kan? dia kata ibunya nama aina tiqah
;haha dia kat sekolah sangat nakal orgnya. ya saya ibu dia. huhu

bcs those questions were about 1yr ago..

My huge bae taste bitter for those who didnt drink coffee but sweet creamer is always be there for u

5 patah perkataan untuk yang ni J to the A to the H to the I to the L JAHIL Kalau ayat seketul afif azman dia selalu sebut JUMUD kat aku, werks
Nak kata bangga jadi diri sendiri taklah sangat (tak langsung ok) sebab saya ada kekurangan yang sangat banyak meanwhile the kelebihan were not worth at all to be proud of. Macam mula-mula saya cakap tadi saya tak kenal dengan diri sendiri so i'm not going to describe myself in brief, well i should wrap up this part ASAP! adios amigos!

You know those videos on Youtube about hijab styling tutorial?? bersepah kot.

“Everyday simple hijab tutorial, hijab styling tutorial with Pashmina, Satin, Bawal, Glitter bla bla bla”

So here comes the one i've been watched on Youtube by Kak Tyah. Speaking of Kak Tyah, she's cute, cheeky, fashionable and has inspired me a lot to have a bold attempt to develop hijab styles on one of her tutos. Saya pun cuba ikut step by step. Dipendekkan cerita, lepas dah flip shawl then lilit sana sini (nasib baik tak tercekik) akhirnya menjadi juga! Cuma bila tengok cermin serupa tak kena. Orang lain tengok nampak ok dah tapi bila diri sendiri tengok nampak pelik sangat haha.

And I thought i wanted to try these hijab styles on raya but i ended up being gadis melayu terakhir wearing tudung bawal putih sebab shawl sangat complicated ummpp.

Being 15 and you’ve no idea what goes well with what and that cuz fashion just isnt your thing. The struggle is real when you have absolutely zero fashion sense, and in other words i’m speaking of myself that have no sense of style at all. Kalau boleh nak pakai t-shirt long-sleeved with tracksuit instead of jeans for out but then my mum started to babble on me for being such selekeh with that kind of outfit. ok i’m not that stylish and trendy but dull, plain, tudung bawal hitam & putih dan selempang ke belakang itu memang perkara biasa. Ok itu memang selekeh tahap extreme punya haha

In my opinion, being fashionable isnt a crime but yet...

Fyi, pre-PMR trial is just around the corner and i'm working on it. But for now, let me take 15 minutes break to write on a blog post. ok this gonna be 15 minutes post as i type this. i challenge you, ain. CHALLENGE ACCEPTED!

just now, i just watched a video, rant on lagu cinta by Mat Luthfi on Youtube and it was hilarious! i said so cuz, Mat Lutfhi is a funny and humorous guy. And he also even know how to deliver his jokes in an intelligent way. i've no offense against his video afterall i'm also listening to lagu melayu cuz i'm a malaysian. so why not? ok i've no offense against anyone here, including YOU, yes my dearly silent reader.

now, i'm listening to top 4 ranking of my favourite lagu english, melayu, indonesia and k-pop in my phone playlist at this moment i'm writing this blogpost.

1. Wake Up Call by Maroon 5 - i know that this song kind of old school since it was release around 2009 at the moment i was just at 9. It used to be my warm up song when i was about to study and i just love Adam Levine!

2. Tanpa by Sixth Sense - i dont know the reason behind all this mess but i tend to imagine Zarul singing to this, maybe sebab he once confessed his true feelings to me when i was at 12. hahaha cinta monyet zaman kanak-kanak ribena :p

Cuti Sekolah 

1. Duduk rumah, makan, tidur, makan tidur.
2. Balik kampunggg yehaaaa!!
3. Kak Nana's wedding
4. Amik Iqbal kat asrama