my boi
i've stayed up countless nights repeating your name hoping that you'll mean less with each breath
I personally can't handle myself since i'm currently experiencing heart palpitations whenever He-Who-Must-Not-Be-Named is around. My thoughts continually turn to him; every song reminds me of his face, his broad smile, his deep voice and know i've been dreaming about him. It's an ache that literally hurts my chest! I can't get over him in the hours and days at the school and i don't know what's more tragic that i keep looking for him wherever i go. It's not just infatuation; it's real love!
Unrequited love is hell cuz all you do is spend your days thinking of someone who will never think of you. it all merged into one feeling of sickening agitation but yet, it was a fun distraction, eh boleh pulak. it was my bff, Musmay keep saying that, "it's such inappropriate for having that kind of wild feeling lah ain atiqah". She also thought that i'm being too obsessed over He-Who-Must-Not-Be-Named since i've been through "typical crush behaviour" phases. ok let me be clear on that one by one.
I told Musmay, i wish that He-Who-Must-Not-Be-Named will be going to teach our class next year – when all you really want to do is stare at his face every day. but it will be never happened since we have Cikgu Hadrah teaches us geography. FYI, it happened ONCE when he was being a sub. And there was a whole story behind it.
Secondly, i get a little light-headed when He-Who-Must-Not-Be-Named walked past me in the hallway. Dia islamik giler weh, cuz all he did was lowering his gaze when he walked by any girls in the school. Err..sorry did i just look at you? Cuz i couldn't resist your charm! #cheesypick-upline
Thirdly, this is the most stupid thing i've ever done in my life! I started to look a ring on his finger to see if he's married! I dont want to jump into any conclusions but Musmay said 'the guy' is married and dah beranak-pinak dah pun. Alahai Musmay ni main taram jerrr, kan. As for me, when a guy wear a ring on, it could be a sunnah. Nak sedapkan hati lettew :p
Next, i tend to bring him up in conversations to the lilysters. Yup i did this most of the time cuz i'm interested to talk more about him as much as possible. And, dorang yang lain dah masak dah dengan perangai ain atiqah yang sorang nih.
This one will be going annoying and irritating since i asked around if anyone knows about his personal life. I play detective to know where he lives, where he comes from, is he a Kelantanese? And so on. These claims required further investigation when i've met my acquaintance schoolmate named Alya a.k.a the witness. According to her, He-Who-Must-Not-Be-Named is a friend of Alya's parents and they once met during an open house. Ouh yes, the witness said he lives somewhere in Desa Ayer Hitam which is far far away from my place 😢 but yet it's helpful enough. Thank you for your cooperation Alya!
Apart from that, Musmay got to see me slightly different macam tak stabil, overly excited, tak betul, terlebih energetic and whatsoever lah cuz i've got to talk to He-Who-Must-Not-Be-Named, LIKE. EVERYDAY!!!!
Later, i slowly to realise that this is unrealistic and inappropriate (that's what ive been told by Musmay) cuz our age-gaps are too much different or else I'll have to be his 2nd wife which is mean becoming the third wheel in the relationship. NOOOOOOOO and finally i'll mourn my loss of He-Who-Must-Not-Be-Named.
Lastly, i think that i need to write down about this just in case i forgot what i've been doing so far. Hahahaha let us wrap this up!
Physchologists say a crush only lasts for 4 months, but when feelings last longer, you are considered to be "in love".
source: factualfacts.com
LOVE. Am i in love since the feeling exceeds for almost 5 months..? ok now, i'm blaming my hormones for being such crazy in the first place. But i'd pretty much melt for his chinese-good-looking (forthegodsake) Waduh indah sungguh ciptaan Tuhan yang satu nihh...
Unrequited love is hell cuz all you do is spend your days thinking of someone who will never think of you. it all merged into one feeling of sickening agitation but yet, it was a fun distraction, eh boleh pulak. it was my bff, Musmay keep saying that, "it's such inappropriate for having that kind of wild feeling lah ain atiqah". She also thought that i'm being too obsessed over He-Who-Must-Not-Be-Named since i've been through "typical crush behaviour" phases. ok let me be clear on that one by one.
I told Musmay, i wish that He-Who-Must-Not-Be-Named will be going to teach our class next year – when all you really want to do is stare at his face every day. but it will be never happened since we have Cikgu Hadrah teaches us geography. FYI, it happened ONCE when he was being a sub. And there was a whole story behind it.
One day when i was out of the class, and the sub in. My heart pounded fast when i got to see, it was He-Who-Must-Not-Be-Named took over the class and all he did was returning back our marked exam papers by calling name each one of us to collect them on his desk. when my turn came, he did called me by the wrong name, Ain ATHIRAH instead of Ain ATIQAH .-.
Secondly, i get a little light-headed when He-Who-Must-Not-Be-Named walked past me in the hallway. Dia islamik giler weh, cuz all he did was lowering his gaze when he walked by any girls in the school. Err..sorry did i just look at you? Cuz i couldn't resist your charm! #cheesypick-upline
Thirdly, this is the most stupid thing i've ever done in my life! I started to look a ring on his finger to see if he's married! I dont want to jump into any conclusions but Musmay said 'the guy' is married and dah beranak-pinak dah pun. Alahai Musmay ni main taram jerrr, kan. As for me, when a guy wear a ring on, it could be a sunnah. Nak sedapkan hati lettew :p
Next, i tend to bring him up in conversations to the lilysters. Yup i did this most of the time cuz i'm interested to talk more about him as much as possible. And, dorang yang lain dah masak dah dengan perangai ain atiqah yang sorang nih.
This one will be going annoying and irritating since i asked around if anyone knows about his personal life. I play detective to know where he lives, where he comes from, is he a Kelantanese? And so on. These claims required further investigation when i've met my acquaintance schoolmate named Alya a.k.a the witness. According to her, He-Who-Must-Not-Be-Named is a friend of Alya's parents and they once met during an open house. Ouh yes, the witness said he lives somewhere in Desa Ayer Hitam which is far far away from my place 😢 but yet it's helpful enough. Thank you for your cooperation Alya!
Apart from that, Musmay got to see me slightly different macam tak stabil, overly excited, tak betul, terlebih energetic and whatsoever lah cuz i've got to talk to He-Who-Must-Not-Be-Named, LIKE. EVERYDAY!!!!
Later, i slowly to realise that this is unrealistic and inappropriate (that's what ive been told by Musmay) cuz our age-gaps are too much different or else I'll have to be his 2nd wife which is mean becoming the third wheel in the relationship. NOOOOOOOO and finally i'll mourn my loss of He-Who-Must-Not-Be-Named.
Lastly, i think that i need to write down about this just in case i forgot what i've been doing so far. Hahahaha let us wrap this up!
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