My dear, Four Feet

We feel the immediate absence of our feline pet, Uteh as he left us through unknown hidden pain he dealt with, till his very last breath at home.  

Uteh is such the best companion of ours through his unconditional love and acceptance —He would greet us at the gate when we return home. He even sent us away to the car when we were about to leave him for a few days for balik kampung (he can understand our certain word and action sounds mean).

In his lifetime, if I pat the floor for several times, he respond well by lowering his body to the ground, exposing his tummy to be rubbed. Then I heard the soft purring bundles of warm, leaving at his vocal cords when he exhales and inhales. I feel calmer and more peaceful afterwards. That feeling of contentment he share with me becoming a warm place to love him more. 

I just came back home for a month of semester break when I was told by ibu he was sick. As a result, he seemed thinner compared to the previous last three months when I saw him —He had a healthy body weight and muscles toned and strong. 

We first noticed his eyes. He got his both pupils blown and always dilated like completely round in the day. We were surprised by his sudden eyes damage and vision loss when he slowed walking to the kitchen and hit one of the counter like he saw nothing ahead.

Uteh acted differently in his last days as such he skipped meals, he would sit and stay at one corner alone. No more bird hunting, no more self-grooming rather putting himself in solitude, away from his other siblings. Ibu was the one whom care Uteh at most during his last days on Planet Earth. Then, we would know that his time has come. At time passed, I got to rub your head for the very last time. 

I'll miss you for a little while, Uteh.