Cry.

Now, I'm listening to Jika by Melly Goeslow and yet, it seems these days my music is kind of classic and a little melancholy, anyway Jika used to be my ear worm when I was little. Like,....who cares is it? Hahahaha... so I come back here to check out my blog stats and my instinct was right! IT WENT SLUMPED 😐😐 But that isn't topic I'm going to talk about. Actually, there's something has brought me here, which is something related to Apip.

Remember my childhood friend Apip? yeah, we had conversations just now in Whatsapp, stumbled upon every little things. Hahahaha….back to the main point, he told me that he is 'sakit', and guess what??,..... The first thing that came to mind upon thinking about the word 'sakit' was.... he diagnosed for having cancer! Then, there was a dramatic pause between us before his big announcement. I burst into tears and it was a reflex action! BUT, the real thing is he didn't. Yeah, at the moment I urged him for telling the truth if he is really sakit and I feel so stupid hahaha nailed it ain!

It's such confusing at the moment when you started to cry over someone like Apip. A. Conscious. Control. Of course, I would cry for him as he's the only boy friend I've still keep in touch after 12 y/o. The last time we contacted was during Eid 2018 and yesterday was our awkward conversations over past few months. Little thing like Arab has bringing our friendship bloom and vibrant but of course it would be definitely awkward if I have some feelings for him and vice versa. 

A pic taken by Apip, when he was playing tourist in Mesir. I wish to be here too, heehehe

Uh hello we are good friends ok. 

Back to our conversations, I asked him in Whatsapp with an open mind and full of consideration. "So ummm, kau sakit apa, pip?"

He refused to tell me the truth, cuz he said I will make fun of him. 

CUTE, but I wouldn't, because I considered we were handling a serious matter. How can I make a fool of you for now, Apip.

So after so many attempts, I finally made it, pujuk dia and yeap, his scapula got extra bone and he loss of appetite from the effects of this sakit for the whole 3 months after back to Malaysia. That's what he was been told by the doctor so far. Then, the doctor referred him to Hospital Putrajaya to do MRI (Magnetic Resonance Imaging) but he refused to do so since he need to follow up his studies back in Mesir. 

So, to Apip, get well soon  💪💪

P/S; pls don't make me cry over you, AGAIN.