The sting

I just found out that envy and jealousy are two different meaning and a yet different emotion.

Envy is the emotion when you want a possession someone else has.

Jealousy is the emotion when you fear you may be replaced in the affection of someone you desire.

Basically, I'm dealing with the emotion of losing and lacking something. I've shouldnt envy farisya at a first place of being accepted to MRSM Pengkalan Chepa. Actually, we both settled to make an attempt to enter MARA science college since the 'ticket' we had, made us 'available' to get enter MRSM. We received short text from MARA, saying;

MARA: Tahniah, anda terpilih untuk mendapat tempat di MRSM sekian, sekian sekian...

This message seemingly may put us into long distance 'friend'ship within hundreds of kilometers away since Farisya got placed jauh in Pantai Timur and I got placed in Muar, Johor. Well, rezeki kan, mana kenal erti kawan. So I started to gather all infos on the internet, what MRSM Muar looks like?? How far is it from home?? Who's the principal and yada yada. Then.... thank you to Pak Cik Google for revealing important info regarding MRSM PC is one of 6 MRSM Bitara and mine is only MRSM Premiere. I were just like,, how it could be??? Honestly, MRSM Muar wasn't in my list as I only chose the three nearest MRSM from my home in Selangor cuz I don't want to get homesick when am hundreds of kilometers away from ibu ayah. But, but, but the thing is I envy my own bestie just bcs I sibuk  count her blessings yang Allah bagi instead of mine?? Does it call as 'tikam belakang??' and 'kurang iman??'

Well, I think is that I shouldn't envy her just because she's being accepted into there, sebab itu rezeki dia. So takyah kot nak jeles3 ni, menyampah .-.Why don't you be grateful on what you have instead of comparing your rezeki with others???

“They recognize the grace of Allah, yet they deny it” – 16:83 

Forgive me for my weakness and attachment of worldly goods.